It's all over now. Today, He broke up with me. I think I sort of forced it. I feel good, but then bad. I mean, I am sad it's over, but in the end, it would have happened anyway, right? But hey....as everyone says "there's more fish in the sea." well, for me there is a whole school of fish. But what if I am not a swimmer though? I think I may let myself be on the ocean's shore awhile. Even though there are a few people asking me to dive right in and ride the waves. Well until next time, I'll be confused and more so by the minute...

Life sometimes seems to be made up of nothing but dead ends. Right now there are three that are bugging me, and they're all related. I've got a dead end education, I have a dead end life, and with it a dead end boyfriend. What I mean by it all...
Next year I will probably be changing schools for the ninth time in my life, and it will be my fourth high school. One for every year. Every year I have to re-plan my classes to get me into the colleges I want. This year, it got so bad I decided to never go. My only kife goal is to graduate, and get a permanent home. My education is dead end because after switching schools so much, the only job I am suited for includes the words "you want fries with that?" and with such a great(*cough*)job in my future, I now see that I lead a dead end life. So much for wanting to achieve greatness right?
Now the dead end boyfriend is easier to explain. I love him, and I guess he loves me, or otherwise I probably would not be with him right now. You see first of all, his mom lives in Florida, and he lives here in the middle of nowhere with his step-brother. He misses her, and he would be there with her now, if not for me. Why still dead end if he stayed you ask? Well here it is. I BARELY EVER SEE HIM. We have no classes together, and we never seem to find time to meet outside of school. It's driving me insane. I see him every once in awhile between passing, but I miss him, because a glance and a hug just isn't enough. I miss talking to him, since I am surrounded by narrow minded rednecks in his absence. He's a dead end boyfriend because I still love him and vice versa, so we'll never break up, and eventually we'll probably not see eachother ever.
Don't you just hate Dead Ends?